It was the peace, the music, the sadness, the joy. How could all of these things be wrapped up in that little room with that large hospital bed?

How could the mom I had known my whole 37 years be passing from this life before my very scared eyes?

Lord? Are you listening? We asked for healing! 

Oh yes sweet friends He was listening and Mom was healed. Not the way I had asked in my heart, but I did pray God's will. Isn't that just like me. I pray God's will yet my  heart yearns for it not to hurt. Please Lord I don't want to be scared. I don't want this change.

Sweet friend I know you may be hurting in this season that is so beautiful and full of celebration, I fully understand. So I say to you as a reminder- it's ok if your scared, lonely, hurting, tired, and just plain "not feelin' it" ! Cry out to the one who designed you! He hears you, He sees you and He knows what's best for you! In this season would you hold on with me? Would you pray that His will be done not only in your life but in your heart? 

As you read this I pray blessing, peace and joy in the midst of what you may be facing this Holiday season. I pray God shows himself real to you and you can rest, rest in His never changing love, grace and mercy.

You are loved beautiful one! Deeply loved by an amazing God! Draw near even if you're scared-He will steady you! 

"Whatever is good and perfect is a gift coming down to us from God the Father, who created all the lights in the heavens. He never changes or casts a shifting shadow." James 1:17 NLT