{COURAGE}

I will never forget the long,written list of family history I provided for the oncologist. I will never forget the simple yet terrifying numbers she spoke, " You will have a 90 % chance of having breast cancer if you do not get your breasts removed." I will never forget my shaky, fear-filled body going into the room to be prepped for a double mastectomy.

What I also won't forget is holding my almost 2 year old daughter and hugging my 7 and 3 year olds knowing I did this for their future. I was so blessed that I had a husband, sister, parents, family and friends that were supportive. Being a Previvor (choosing to have a preventative mastectomy) is no easy thing. It takes courage to know something could happen, yet still take drastic measures to prevent it.  The only thing that is true, is my faith and hope in an amazing God, who walked me through each step, each decision and continues to do so as I am now in my 7th year of healing.

Oh yes ladies, I still struggle with various muscle aches and pains, but I am grateful for them. When I reach too high to get a bowl for dinner, I remember that I am still here to bless my family with a meal. When I lift a heavy load of laundry, I am blessed to know I am able to fold clothes. When I do a plank (as of late) to get my body back to a better version of me, I am reminded that I am strong, I am capable, and I have the courage to fight on. 

And if you are a survivor or a previvor just know I am praying for you and cheering you on! You are strong, courageous and your beauty is soul deep! 

"Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you." Psalm 9:10